The moment I found out I was pregnant was one of the best moments of my life. I was filled with joy, curiosity, insecurity and maybe even fear because I felt that 9 months could not be enough to learn everything I needed to be the “perfect” mother, to have an “amazing” birthing experience, and especially to keep calm in a hospital environment with all the medical intervention I would need in the next coming year. I suffer with white coat syndrome, and get very anxious in stressful situations. I end up having panic attacks that prevent me to be me…
I knew I needed a mother to walk this road with me…
I didn’t have a mother, at least in this dimension with me anymore, and the closest thing to a mother would be a Doula, someone to guide me, inform me, and to simply be there…
I went through different profiles and I messaged a few Doulas. I met with a couple of lovely ladies who were available and supportive to spare their time just to help me. This was deeply moving and I knew I was on the right track, but there was a problem: “we didn’t click,” so I had to keep looking.
Nina came to my house on a cold winter night, and as soon as we met I knew this was my doula, and our journey started.
I called nina when labour began she took me to the shower, rubbed by back, fed me, hugged me, calmed me and reminded me of what I actually experiencing, the most empowered moment of my life, she did this not only for me but also for my partner too.
My baby was born with Nina reassuring me by my side. Nina was there for the next few days, checking on us, helping me with the breastfeeding part, which was harder than I expected.
Thank you Nina